Chapter 17

...: Jenan! Shtsween mny?

It was Ahmed with his friends.

Jenan: Uuum bs knt ga3da afkr laysh? Mmnoo3?

Ahmed: Laa 5las 3ady g3day g3day. A7na ng3d bl 9ala.

Jenan: Shd3wa 7muuud. G3daw mny bs 3ady t6l3oon shway 3shan ajhz ashya2ii?

They walked out and Ahmed closed the door behind him. I quickly told Majed to leave through the window. He kissed me goodbye on my forehead and left. I closed the window behind him and took the glasses that were there. I opened the door and Ahmed was waiting. I smiled at him and he smiled back. Slmt 3la his friends to I went to the guest room 3shan anam. It was late so I BBM’ed Majed and told him I was going to sleep. I suddenly got a phone call from Majed.

Majed: Noom l 3wafy 7uby. Sleep tight

Jenan: Allah y3afeeek, you too! Gn

Majed: A7biich, bye

I slept 3la 6ool. Some banging noise woke me up. Someone was knocking on my door. I screamed “ Mno “ and Ahmed said it was him. I got up and unlocked the door. He smiled at me and asked if he could come in. I gestured with my hand showing him in. He went straight to my bed and sat down.

Ahmed: Jenan, I cant take this anymore. I love you & I want you. Why cant you see that I’d do anything for you? It upsets me when I know you talk to Majed. I try not to show it but I cant take it anymore.

Jenan: Ahmed I don’t know what to say.

Ahmed: Just tell me you love me. Jenan I know you do!

Jenan: Ahmed bs 5alas. Leave me alone. Shko you come and tell me all of this when you know I love Majed. Ahmed just leave

Ahmed: Ok ok 5las im sorry J Oo Jenan maby ashoufich mny mra thanya please. When I wake up tomorrow maby algaach. Just forget this ever happened.

He walked out and I shut the door, locked it and started crying. Why? I didn’t love him! I loved Majed….. But I cared about Ahmed. I spent an hour crying and that’s when I decided to talk to Ahmed. I called him..

Ahmed: Mmm?

He seemed upset and it sounded like he was crying

Jenan: Ahmed im sorry. I didn’t want to mean it like that

Ahmed: La 3ady whatever. Oo wla ana. I didn’t mean what I said about you leaving. I don’t want you out of my life.

Jenan: 7mouuud t3al my room bklmk. Yalla bye.

I closed it and waited for him to come. He knocked on the door oo I told him to come in. He locked the door behind him and sat next to me. My face was all red and puffy from the crying. Ahmed obviously noticed. He put my head on his shoulder and held my hand tight.

Ahmed: Jenan walla im really sorry for everything I said. Ma kan 8sdy bs its just that I got pissed. Please sam7eeny

Jenan: Don’t worry J Asam7iiik. I cant stay mad at you. Bs  Ahmed im really happy that you are back in my life walla.

Ahmed: Me 2 ;* Shryiich tnameeen 3lay mthl last time ;) Yal baby

I couldn’t help it. He was being to sweet. I smiled at he felt my smile widen on his shoulder.

Ahmed: Tst7een y3ny haa?

I laughed out loud

Jenan: Ast7y mnk laysh? Mn 7latiiik

Ahmed: Aha  so that’s what you think of me ! Ok ok Jnoon. Mashkoora

I lifted my head and punched his shoulder and gave him a devilish smile. He knew what was going to happen. I quickly grabbed my pillow and failed miserably at hitting him. He already had his face covered. He grabbed the pillow out of my hand and hit me so hard I fell off the bed. The next thing I knew he was just hitting me non-stop with the pillow. I was laughing so hard. I was still on the floor when he got up and so I tripped  him. But he fell on me and that’s when I realized our faces were 2 inches apart. He leaned closer to me and kissed my cheek. I felt a rush and my heart was beating really fast. I enjoyed it but it was wrong. Ahmed saw my surprised face and backed off

Ahmed: Jenan walla asiif. Ma kan 8sdy I swear walla walla im so sorry it just happened. Please forgive me. I didn’t mean it walla.

Jenan: Ahmed its ok J You just shocked me. Bs trra you know that was wrong of you oo ya wailik if you ever do it again

Ahmed: I know I don’t know what got over me. Im really sorry.

Jenan: 5ls 3ady 3ady. Yalla go to sleep

Ahmed: I cant. Jenan ma tdreen shkther that made me happy sorry bs even though you were pissed.

Jenan: Hahaha! Yalla yalla rou7

Ahmed: Ok yalla good night;* Sweet dreams ashufiich bacher

Chapter 16

(Ahmed & the guy)

Ahmed: Trra 7ram 3laik tswy chthi feeha :s Shklk mo mtrby 3dl.

The guy: 7mood inta shko feeha u9ln :s Hathy 7beebty!!

Jenan thinking: woaah!! That's Majeds voice, I swear it is!!!! :O

Ahmed: Majed, itha hathy 7beebtk shko t5lee 3thman yswy chthy feeha mo 7ram?

Majed: Madry shloon agulk... Uhwa galy kan yby Jenan - y3ny yjees.ha oo swalf chthy. Ma rthayt wla yguli inna ra7 ygul 7g ahil.ha oo walla 5ayf 3laiha.

Ahmed: Madry shggulk,, bs ilee a3rfa inna ihya z3lana mniik 7ail. Rou7 foug oo klmha. Goulha sh9ar. She needs it.

(My point of view)

I better go upstairs NOW! I ran up the stairs and into Ahmed's room. I pretended I wa sleeping. I heard the bedroom door open and I could feel my heart pounding again. I was scared but then relieved when I heatd Ahmed's voice. I felt someone come on the bed next to and try to wake me up. I moaned and pretended to open my eyes. It was Majed smiling at me. I was still pissed at him and so I said calmly

Jenan: Majed, a6l3 min ihny il7ayn. Mabee ashouf wayhiik. Just leave me alone

Majed: Jenan please just hear me out. 3thman kan yby yfth7na I couldn't let him do it!

I just gave him a look of disappointment and he understood.

Majed: Inzayn fhmt :) Khls 3yl a5leech bs trust me Jenan  I didn't want any of that to happen. I care about you oo 3shan chthy :)

He walked out of the room and I felt my phone vibrate.

NITM/ MMR: Jenan a7biich and I always will bs please la tz3leen mny. I can't stand it.

I smiled. But I couldn't reply. I didnt know how to.

Ahmed was about to leave but I called him

Jenan: Ahmed wait.

Ahmed: yea?

Jenan: Ahmed why did you make him come here and tell me this?

Ahmed: Shdraach I told him?

Jenan:  I heard your convo bl dwaniya

Ahmed: I can't stand watching you like this. You're depressed oo tbcheen, I needed him to straighten things out with you. Laysh you didn't let him? Why are you doing this to yourself?

Jenan: I'm sorry bs I don't want a boyfriend who would let his best friend do that me? He's disgusting. I shouldn't even be talking about him.

Ahmed: Jenan he was trying to protect you. Why don't you understand?

Jenan: Ahmed leave just leave!!

Ahmed: Tra you can't kick me out of my own room ;)

He came towards me and sat on the bed. We were close and I could smell the cigarettes on him. He turned my face to look at him.

Ahmed: Jenan, I did all this because I love you. I want you to be happy and you always are when you are with him. Trra he loves you, he honestly does. He was nearly in tears when he was telling me everything about 3thman. Give him a chance Oo I know everything will be great between you both.

I smiled, staring deep in his eyes. He really loves me I can tell from his eyes. They are deeply in love with someone. That someone is me! I don't know what to do.

3 days past and I couldn’t help it I missed Majed and if what he told me was true, he sure misses me too. I had to call him.

1 ring, 2 rings, 3 rings, 4 rings, 5 rings, 6 rings..

El mshtrk la yriid….

I tried calling again, but the same thing happened. I needed him with me. I needed to talk to him. I tried one more time and he finally answered. It sounded like he was crying.

Jenan: Majed shfeeek ga3d tbchy?

Majed: Jenan leave me alone please. Maly 5lg a7d, you’re lucky I even answered. Bs I didn’t want you to be upset

Jenan: Majed I love you and I always will. Please la tbchhy!!

Majed: Inzayn.

Jenan: Baby please! Goom 3’sl wayhiik Oo t3al bayt Ahmed please bklmk!

Even after all he did, I forgave him. How could i not? He had that charm about him that i couldnt resist.

Majed: Enshalla. B3d shwaya ashoufich enshallah

Jenan: Ok 7uby, Take care.. I love you.

Majed: Me 2;* Bye

It wasnt even 10 minutes and Majed was there. I opened the door - Thank God noone was in the house. I pretty much jumped on him. I noticed him smile while i was holding on for over 4 minutes. I pulled him into the Diwaniya and we sat cuddling together. It felt so great being in his arms. I just loved it. He held my hands and kissed my forehead.

Majed: Janoon, A7bich walla you have no idea how much. Just wait another 2 years Oo you are going to be all mine forever & ever.

Jenan: Majed bss walla ast7y chthyy!! Bs enshalla we will be <3

Majed: 7yati... I'm really sorry about ilee 9ar gbl with 3thman.

Jenan: Ok 7uby  just forget about it. 5ls its ok ;*

Majed: Jenan grbay shwaya....

I moved closer, and he gripped onto my hands even tighter. I felt my heart pounding even faster than normal. Was he going to do what i think he was?

He leaned closer and closer until i felt his lips touch mine. They were soft and i could feel his warm breath . I couldn't explain the feeling. I smiled for ages. It was the best feeling ever. We spent the rest of the night just cuddling and watching TV. It turned 8:30 pm and I got worried. What if Ahmed walked in? He had to leave.

Jenan: Baby lazim trou7 now! Itha Ahmed aw ay a7d thany dsh 3laina?

Majed: Maby a5leeech? 10 minutes?

Jenan: Woiii 5las ok ok 10 minutes.

5 minutes passed. I heard someone talking and about to opent he Dwaniya door. I told Majed to quickly hide and i pretended to be watching TV. Majed hid behind the sofa. The door opened.

...: Jenan! Shtsween mny?

Chapter 15

Sorry its short! But I have no time to write. Bust studying!

It was Ahmed. He threw a rock at the window breaking it and unlocked the doors. He pulled me out and Majed quickly got out ready to hit Ahmed. Luckily, I have to admit, he was waaay stronger than both of them put together and he easily got them to go. They left and Ahmed held my wrist. He looked worried and angry and suddenly lit a cigarette. That’s when I pulled it out of his mouth and screamed

Jenan: Ahmed shfeeeeek inta? Ana twa 36aitk a lecture about smoking? Laysh ma tifhim??

Ahmed: Im sorry bs walla 39bt! Janoon laysh tsween chthy ha? 7ywana? Walla you are so lucky I was suspicious and followed you.

Jenan: Eee 7amdillah! Thank you. Madry shloon I’ll ever re-pay you.

We walked to his house and I went to his room. 7sait I needed to be with him. He was the only one who understood me. I was still in tears and he lay me on his bed. He told me to sleep now and I can tell him tomorrow morning. So sm3t klama and I slept. He slept on the chair in his room just incase I was stupid enough to leave the room again.

I slept like a baby. I've never felt so relaxed in my life. Was it because I knew Ahmed was close by and he would keep me safe? At 1pm his mum came to wake me up. I got up in a fright and I was looking for Ahmed. She told me he left to go sleep in the guest room. I knocked on the guest room door. I knew he was pretending to sleep and so I knocked on his door with our childhood knock to know who it is. It was 3 knocks and I smack on the door. I heard him get up from the bed but I already opened the door. He smiled when he saw me and I smiled back. He looked so cute when he woke up. Shkla yahiil!! I told him to come to his room because I was ready to talk. We walked silently to his room.

Jenan: Ahmed please mabeek t39b wla tswy shay ok? Promise?

Ahmed: Enshallah :) Bs gooleely shno 9ar

Jenan: Well lma gltlk dish dariik I wanted you to go so I could leave the house ans go to Majed. Ma knt adry inna his friend was in the car oo I couldn't believe he would ever allow that. He was touching me kil mkan but Majed just sat and watched me crying. I wanted to leave wla he locked the doors Oo oo...

I was already in tears but I couldn't speak. I didn't know how to say it.

Ahmed: Did he do anything to you? Jenan ridy 3lay please.

I tried my best to talk but no words came out. I just shook my head and he looked relieved. I really literally needed his shoulder to cry on. I couldn't help the tears. How could Majed do something like that to me? Majed was just rotating in my mind I didn't even notice Ahmed come and sit next to me until he put my head on his lap. I couldn't help but smile. It was our childhood thing. If I cried, I would have my head on his lap and he would just rock me. He was doing that now. I loved how he remembered every little detail of our childhood. Maybe he really did love me. Maybe I'm wrong. I was wrong about Majed so I could be wrong about him too. I woke up the next morning still on his lap. It was wet from all my tears l fyr. I can't believe he stayed awake the whole time. That was adorable! I opened my eyes and found him smiling at me. I smiled back and quickly put my head up.

Ahmed: 9aa7 el noom (:

Jenan: 9a7 b deenk. Laysh ma nmtt?

Ahmed: 7ram, you had a hard night. I didn't want to disturb you or aga3diich. You seemed happy sleeping. I didn't want you coming back to reality.

Aaaahhh how adoraaaablleeee!!!! I just smiled at lay down on his bed. I was still so tired. He told me he was going to sleep in the guest room and leave me here to sleep if I wanted to. Deep down I wanted him to stay with me. Deep down I longed to be on his lap again. Deep down, I think I LOVED him. NO I CAN'T!! I love Majed. I was thinking a lot and couldn't help it. All this things were crossing my mind, 7sait it was going to explode. Suddenly, I heard the guest room door open and then close. I heard footsteps moving towards the lift.

I was scared. Was it Ahmed? I got out of his bed which smelt amaziing!! I creeped to the door an opened it quietly. Whoever it was, was already in the lift. I went to see what floor the person was going to. The basement? I decided to go down the stairs just incase. I reached the basement door and heard voices. The voice was familiar. I knew it was Ahmed but who was the other guy?

Chapter 14

It was Ahmed’s older brother, Nayef. He was older than Ahmed in 2 years. I was never really close to him but he knew how much me and Ahmed used to love each other. He knew everything back then.

Nayef: Jenan please goomaay klmaay Ahmed.

Jenan: Laysh shfeee? Shswa?

Nayef: Ga3d yd5n 3l s67 please gooleeela to stop a5af 3leeeh L

He looked upset and I was shocked. Ahmed did not seem like the type of guy to smoke. He despised people who smoke. He always told me it was a gross habit. I ran to the lift and pressed on Level 4 – The roof. When the doors opened I heard someone move. I guessed he was trying to hide. I walked onto the roof and pretended I was looking for him.

Jenan: Ahmed are you here?

Ahmed: Eee kany. Shmg3diich? Its 4am!!

Jenan: Madry I couldn’t sleep so I knocked on your door bs Nayef said 6l3t min 3’rftiik Oo you were on the roof. So I came looking for you

Ahmed: Ohh! Yea magdrt anam.  T3aly g3day mny

He pointed to these 5 chairs around a table. I sat down and he sat down next to me. We were close – Very close!

Jenan: Ahmed 3adi as2liik shay?

Ahmed: Yea sure s2lay

Jenan: Laysh td5n? Trra walla a5af 3laik, I don’t want you to have bad health L You know shkthr I care about you. You’re my brother Oo I love you and I want you to be healthy. Please try and stop!

Ahmed: Jenan intay ma tdreen shfeeny 3shan you tell me to stop. Its addictive and I cant.

Jenan: Please 7muuuud 3shany please stop L Oo trra tell me what made you start! Oo trra bsa3diik (:

Ahmed: Walla Jenan 3shaniich bss I’ll stop ;* Oo its because of this girl who doesn’t love me. Shes on my mind 24/7. Smoking makes the stress go away. I love her wayiiid ma tdreen shkthiiir! Abeeha bs ma tbeeeeny! I didn’t know what else to do. She thinks of me just as a friend.

I knew it was a girl from GUST. Mashalla fee some really pretty girls there and nice ones too. He’s definitely fallen for one of them.

Jenan: Laysh ma gltly? You know I would help you. No matter what Ahmed im by your side.

Ahmed: Janoon it’s a girl you know, you guys are practically one.

It cant be Jenna right? I’ve known her for ages and she is in GUST also doing marketing. It must be her. She was older than me but we were so close.

Jenan: Mmm Ahmed is it someone starting wih J?

Hathy shdraha? How does she know its her? Am I making it that obvious. She must be fooling around.

Ahmed: Ummm ymkiin

Jenan: I knew it! It’s Jenna right? OMG wnassa!!! I can so help you! Ahmed laysh ma gltly min gbl?

Ahmed*Disappointed*: La mo Jenna.. Bs 5las skrray el mowthoo3 please

Jenan: Shd3wa 3laiiikkk! Yulla gouly

Ahmed: Promise ma tz3leen mny?

Jenan: Eee I promiiiiisee now yalla tell me!

Ahmed: Jenan I’ve known you pretty much all my life. We’ve been neighbours and we have been over to each other’s houses. We had our fun times and wla mrra z3lt mniich. We know everything about each other and I really love you. Jenan a7biiich, ever since we were kids I’ve loved you. Trra walla I was thinking about marrying you once you graduated. Jenan that is how committed I am to you. I love you Oo I want you to be mine. Please? L

I was speechless. What could I say? I had Majed but he was ignoring me. I do love Ahmed but I don’t think its love love! Its just sister-brother love. Right? We did have our memories but I don’t know! Is it what I want? I don’t want to be known for just dumping a guy and going straight to another one. But can I trust Ahmed with what I am going to tell him?

Jenan: Ahmed 3ady agulik shay bs please keep it a secret?

Ahmed gave me a sign to continue…

Jenan: Ahmed a7biik I honestly do but not a lot. Oo I am with someone right now. A7ba oo I guess e7ibny.

Ahmed: Shno guess?! Jenan itha ra7 tkooneen m3a wa7iid mayseer you guess :s Sh.hal 7ub!

Jenan: Ufff Ahmed you don’t know anything about him.

Ahmed: Was he worried about you when you told him about the fire? Did he call you?

I lied. I couldn’t stand him saying all this stuff about Majed. Even though its been 2 days and he hasn’t answered any of my calls I had to lie.

Jenan: As a matter of fact he did. He was really worried.

Ahmed: Jenan a3rfiich when you are lying. Come on! Tchthbeen 3layy ana? The person who knows you the most. Your lips start shaking and you breathe really fast. Stop denying the fact that he doesn’t care.

I was hurt. He may be right. I don’t think Majed cared anymore. All of a sudden my phone buzzed. Majed was calling.. I answered because  I knew Ahmed wont say anything.

Majed: Ufff 7yatiii I missed your voice so much!

Jenan: Woii 7uby me too. Walla ma tdry shkithr ive missed you. Walla a7biik

Ahmed rolled his eyes at me, He knew I was doing this on purpose.

Majed: Inzayn 7yatii mta ashoufiich?

Jenan: 3la kaiiifkk baby mtta ma tby

Majed: 7uby 3ady ayeeeliich il7ayn Oo tnzleen nsooliif bl syara?

Jenan: Eee 7uby walla 3ady

We hung up and I tried not to make it obvious that I was going to meet him. I turned to Ahmed and gave  him a *Haa shfttt* look. I told him to go sleep as I was going to sleep too. He said he would and went downstairs. I made sure he was in his room and locked it when I left his house. My heart was beating fast. I cant believe I was doing this. I made sure he parked far away from my house so he wouldn’t know where it is. I did trust him but you never know. I saw his Rolls Royce parked. Obviously it was him and so I went and sat in the front. His car smelt of very strong Number 4 perfume. It was as though he sprayed it just now. So as I got in I saw him smiling as usual.

Majed: Oo a5eeraan 7yatyyy shftiich.

Jenan: Eeee :$                         I could feel my cheeks burning.

Majed: Lil7ayn tst7eeeen mnyy? Shd3wa 7uby.

He moved closer to me and held my hand. It was quiet and I heard someone breathing quietly in the back. I turned to look back and it was his friend,  3thman. I hated him and he always disgusted me. He always seemed so w95. I don’t know how to describe it. It was a vibe you got from him when he was near. I looked at him with a dirty look and turned to Majed. I knew something bad was about to happen.

Jenan: Majed briid el bait.

Fj2a he locked the doors. I was trapped in the car with my boyfriend and his horrible friend. Now what? I felt someone’s hand touch my lower back and was going lower and lower. I turned a bit to the left and saw it was 3thman’s hand. I pushed his hand away but he was too strong. He was very muscular and so I couldn’t move it. I was scared and I didn’t know what to do.

Jenan: Majed tell him to stop!! Pleaasee. Shloon trtha yswee chthy feeny?

3thman came closer to my face and I turned it away looking at Majed confused and about to cry. 3thman put his hand on my face and turned it making me face him. By this time I was screaming. I turned it away again and that’s when he slapped me. I burst into tears and suddenly heard a big CRASH!

Chapter 13

A few days past and he was always sweet talking me. If I ever got angry at him ( I rarely did ) he would always cheer me up. One day he called me while I was in my room and it was 2 am.

Majed: Hala 7yaty shlooonch?

Jenan: Walla 7uby im good ,, inta shlooniik?

Majed: im great;* Jenan….

Jenan: Rouuuuu7ha…

Majed: A7bich

Jenan: Amouut feeek

Majed: A3shgiichhh

Jenan: Ahwaaaaak :$

Majed: Oo ana…

He got cut off by my bro calling me. OMG What do I do? Who do I say I was talking to? Hes going to kill me. Thank God hes not home. I heard my door knob turn and I quickly ended Majed’s call. I forgot about deleting the call log. He came in and yelled:

Dhary: Jenan tklmeeeen mno hal 7za?

Jenan: Knt ga3da aklm Fay, g3dtny because shes having family problems oo was scared.

Dhary was not stupid. He knew about swalf chthy.

Dhary: 36eeeny telephonich

I handed it to him and my heart was still racing.

Dhary: Aha L 7ub?

Jenan: Eeee Fayouuuun 7uby shtby?

Dhary called the number and Majed picked up.

Majed: Alooo 7uby you ok?

Did he have to pick up? Y3ny seriously?

Dhary: Inta mno 3shan tklm e5ty chthy?

Majed didn’t answer I guessed

Dhary: Jawb 3lay ya 8leeeeel adab! Shnw hal 7chy

Majed didn’t answer him but then shut it. Dhary looked at me with angry eyes. What was he going to do now? He pulled me from my hair off my bed

Dhary: Laysh tchthbeen 3lay? 3baliich ana 7mar?

I sat there in silence. I was about to cry

Dhary: Don’t cry. La tfkreen itha u cry im going to care. You are in deep trouble.

He took my phone and my ipad and everything electronical. I had nothing. I needed to talk to Majed. I needed him more than ever. Days past and I didn’t have my phone. It was the weekend and Dhary was at the shalaih with his friends. This was my opportunity to get my phone. Not all of it, just my sim and memory card. He wouldn’t notice. I carefully snuck into his room and checked everywhere. Under his pillow and bed, in his closet and in his drawers. I couldn’t find it. I looked everywhere and finally found it in his bathroom cabinet. I took my sim and memory card out and ran to my room. I put my sim in my other old blackberry. I still had my friends on my other BB so I didn’t  need to re-add anyone – Except Majed. Thank god I knew his pin off my heart. I quickly re-added him. I waited and waited, but he didn’t accept. I knew his number by heart as well but he didn’t answer either! It was 8pm so he couldn’t be asleep. I was worried. I kept calling both numbers and he didn’t answer. He was shown as online on Whatsapp. He was ignoring me and I was sure of it. I pretty much threw my phone but before that made sure all alerts were off incase Dhary came and heard something. I decided to sleep, I was upset he was doing this to me. Even if he was with his family he would always tell me no matter what. I feel like he’s forgotten me after those few days. Maybe he thought that we broke up oo 5las. No chance at all. He wouldn’t, right? Lots of things were circulating my mind.

 I needed him, I wanted him, he cant have forgotten me. Maybe he has, maybe he’s found someone else. Maybe he doesn’t want me anymore and doesn’t care.

I fell asleep and woke up to the sound of my door banging and sirens outside. It was my maid.

Mary: JENAAAAAN WAKE UP WAKE UP!!! FEEEE FIIIREEEEE… YULLA WAKE UP QUICKLY.

I jumped out of bed shocked. I wore my robe and put my phone in my pocket. No-one was home but me. This was the scariest moment in my life. What caused the fire? Why when im alone?  Our neighbours got me an 3abaya and 7jab to wear and they were offering for me to go inside their house. I went to my neighbours house and it was a while since I went in there. When I was smaller their son, Ahmed, and I used to be best friends. Killa m3a b3th 24/7. Everyone thought we were going to get married but I only saw him as my brother.

He’d tell me I was arrogant and I’d always say he was a pain in the ass 99% of the time. But that 1% he was amazing. I remember him as a kid being so dorky and thin. He was fun and crazy bs m2db at the same time. I have thousands of memories with him. I never used to be afraid of hurting his feelings and he didn’t either. Everything was taken as a joke back then. But now, boy has he changed. He was tan and hot! He was muscular but not too muscular. It was mainly on his arms that he was muscular which I find so attractive. We hadn’t seen each other in many years. We used to see each other when he would go to his car as I was leaving the house but we never stared at each other. He stared at me and I stared back. We wouldn’t leave each other’s eyes. It was like my eyes were locked on his. His mother was in the living room with us. She noticed our weird stares and distracted us

Um Ahmed: Haa Jenan mn zman mo shayfeench mny

Jenan: Haaa ee 5alty , madry kbrna 7sait 3aib

I noticed he smiled but tried not to let out a loud laugh.

Um Ahmed: T3aly, shko 3aib! 7ram 3laiich 7moodoo kan your best friend sh9aar?

Ahmed: Yuma galtlch,, kbrna oo 9j 3aib. 9a7 klamha.

Um Ahmed: Shd3wa 3laiikm 7sstoony ra7 t7boon b3th.

We both looked at eachother and laughed. We both remembered the same moment. We were 6 or 5 and i was at his house. We were alone in his room playing with his action figures and my barbies. He came up to me and kissed me on my cheek and told me he loved me. We thought we were so cool and grown up that we loved eachother. Good times when no one judged you when you acted like that. It was considered cute. When his mum and dad came home he ran up to them holding my hand saying we will get married and he loves me now. They just laughed but back then we meant it. 

Ahmed: Yuma il7ain 3aib itha Jenan tyee 3ndy foog?

Um Ahmed: Laaa shko 3aib hathy e5tiiik. Rou7aw

Ahmed: Yulla Jnooon ;) Walla 3'rfty shkla 3'aiiiiir.

I walked down the long hallway and I got into the lift. He pressed the number and then went up the stairs. I remembered this lift. Nothing changed. It was still that gold colour. When the doors opened he was already there panting because he was running to get here before i did. He pointed to the other hallway and i followed. There was a room right at the end. It was his. I walked in and he shut the door behind him. It changed since the last time i saw it. He now had a big king size bed with beige sheets and his room was a chocolate brown colour. He had a small sofa in his room too. He told me to sit down on the sofa and he sat on his bed - keeping his distance.

Ahmed: Uff Janooon long time no see haa

Jenan: Eee 7da.. shlooonk?

Ahmed: Walla I'm good, intay shloonch? How's school?

Jenan: Im good too :) School is good too... You're in jam3a now right?

Ahmed: Yea I'm in GUST now. My first year. Im studying marketing

Jenan: Oh 9iij? Wnassa (: I might be transferring there when i graduate enshalla.

Ahmed: Enshalla ashufiich 3yl

It was silent a moment or two and thats when Ahmed said something that made my eyes pop out of their sockets.

Ahmed: Janoooonnyyyy A7biiiiiiich!!!

Jenan:Whaaaat :O

Ahmed: Shfeeech! Jenan laykoon 3balch 9jj? Mat.thkreeen old times;)

Jenan: Haa eee eee i remember, Sh5bary ;p

Ahmed: Jenan shfeech e5tr3tay? Shd3waaaa

Jenan: Laa laa shko shko .... I knew you were kidding.

Ahmed: Jenan walla I miss having our old conversations. Knna nwns walla xD

Jenan: Ufff 7da. Remember lmaa...

And we spent the whole night talking about our past together. Coming to think of it, it was great being with him. Our memories were so funny and great. The whole night we were laughing and smiling. My parents came home at 11 and knew i was at Ahmed's house and they went to my Grandmother's house. So i slept over at his house. But i didn't sleep. We were together the whole night until it was 9alat. We prayed and went to sleep. I slept in the guest room. As soon as i felt my eyes drop off to sleep, I felt some one tap my arm.

....: Jenan wake up i need to tell you something.

Chapter 12

I heard half of the ring and then he picked up.

Majed: Hala wala , hala bl 7ubb ;*

OMG! His voice sounds soooo yummy? Noo that’s not the word. DREAAAMMYYY!!!!

Jenan: Hi :$

Majed: Ashkra wayhiiich a7mr

Jenan: Chuuub chuuub L Wulla 7ywan!

Majed: Inzayn Jujiii,, ma glteely,,

Jenan:  Ma gltlk shno :O

Majed: A777b…

Jenan: biiiik ;)

Majed: Maleeeeeee8a! Yulla bsm3a mniich… Bsr3a… yulla asr3 asr3!!

Jenan: 36ny fr9a atklm. Eeee uuum a7iiib…….wa7iiid chnna esma Majed :$

Majed: Ya Jenan walla b6aity chbdy! Ufff yulla yulla byeL

Jenan: Heeeeeyyy Majuuudoooo,, a7biik a7biiiik haaa happy now?

Majed: Ma tdreeen shkbr my smile right now;* Walla a7biich Oo I cant wait till tomorrow

Jenan: Laysh shno  tomorrow?

Majed: Bshuuuuufiich :$

Jenan: Haaw shko tshufny :O Ams chnna kan kafyyyy!

Majed: La shako, Jenan please t3aly skate oo rkbay wyay l syara. 8smnbillah ma aswy shay.

Jenan: Madry, y9eiir khair b3dayn J Yull I gotta go. Bye

Majed: A7biich!

Ok so now what? Should I shouldn’t i? Do I ask a7mad? He might know the right thing to do!

So I talked to a7mad and he told me that if he swore he wouldn’t do anything , I should trust him. So I guess I will (: I cant wait for tomorrow. The usual feeling I get everytime I know Im going to see him! Dalal said she would go with 3li while im with Majed. I didn’t mind. The next day came I couldn’t help but be all smiley. The best thing was that he is mine. All mine!

As soon as I got there I went to sit on the stairs outside Mac and waited for him. Every time I hear that engine I smile. I cant help it! I know hes coming and ill see him <3 So I heard and quickly stood up. He parked far away so no1 would see and I got in the car with him. I sat at the front because I trusted him. I believed he wouldn’t do anything I didn’t want to do. I got in with a big smile on my face. He noticed.

Majed: Ha shkliich mstansta?

I could feel my face burning up so I put my hands on my cheeks

Jenan: Laaa shkoo! Bs 7rrrr. Its summer in Kuwait, What do you expect?

Majed: Inzayn 7uby shloonich?

Jenan: 7amdillah im good Oo inta shloonk?

Majed: 3sa Dooom.. Tmam damiich tmam (:

I loved it when he smiled. It brightens up my day every time.

Majed: Jenan…

Then he held my hand. I didn’t know what to do. I liked it, but is it what I really wanted? YES!

I smiled even more. I don’t think ive ever smiled this much in my life. We spent most of the  time just staring into each other’s eyes. Ive fallen for him. Hes just amazing. Hes not like any guy in skate I knew. He was different.

Majed: 7yatii,, adry this is pretty soon, bs abeeeech to be mine forever. A7biiich more than anyone. You’re on my mind 24/7. I smile every time I see you. I get butterflies in my stomach when you are with me. I love the fact you love me for me and you act yourself when you are with me. You don’t get embarrassed like other girls 3la ashya2 s5eefa. Intay tst7eeen mn klam l 7loo ;) Ma ttdl3ain! I love everything about you.

The biggest smile was on my face. I LOVED HIM I HONESTLY DID.

Jenan: Majed wdy bs lo t3rf shkthr I love you. I do want you to be mine forever, but it’s a bit too early to be thinking about things like that. Oo trra I do love you for you & no matter what I always will;*

He was about to kiss my hand but I moved it away.

Majed: 7yaty im so so sorry L Mo 8sdy walla. Please la tz3leeen. I should have asked you. Im sorry

Jenan: Uuum 7uby its okay I don’t mind. Its just that I got a shock! Ive never been in love with a guy fa madry shswy.

He grabbed my hand again but didn’t kiss it this time. We were in silence for a few minutes and that’s when I kissed his hand. I saw those dimples waiting to come out but he was trying to hold that smile in.

Jenan: Haa tst7y? Smiillee shfeek inta? Let it out ;)

Majed: Shko ast7y mn my future wife?

Jenan: Heeeeeey!! Majed ush ush L Walla chthy ast7y.

Grrb, oo I was freaked out.

Jenan: Hey Majed w5r.

He was holding on to me really tight. I didn’t know what to do.

Jenan: Majed stop it! BSSS!! Majed stop let go of me

Majed: Haaaa umm sorry sorry Jenan walla asf L I don’t know what got over me.

Jenan: La its ok (: 3ady 3ady

Majed: 7yaty walla a7biich wayiiid.

Jenan: Me 2;*

Majed: Janoon t3rfeen ina im in the army for UAE?

Jenan: La2 :O You never told me…

Majed: Shoofay..

He showed me a picture of him in his uniform. He looked so hot in it. He then pulled out his badge from the side of the door and it was written “ Majed M. Al*** “ Army. It was cute that my boyfriend already had a job. He told me he was ready to marry me now. He had a m3aash and a house that his parents don’t use and we could live in it. I explained to him that I was waaayy to young and there is no way my parents would allow it. He said he would try waiting but if it went on too late he would tell me parents he wants me no matter what. I was surprised and excited. I loved how he would tell me stuff about our future. It made be get butterflies in my stomach He wanted me to be happy and that’s what mattered. It was our daily routine. Calling in the middle of the night talking for 6 hours non-stop. We used to talk about the most random stuff. But I loved the fact that we could talk about anything to each other. He knew all my secrets and I knew all of his. It was like he was my prince charming!